My biggest fear is
running out of books.
OK, I lie: my biggest
fear is not being able to write. Not being able to write well. Going back to
working 70 hours a week, 49 weeks a year so that I can have three weeks in the
sunshine, and calling that my life. Then: the loneliness and the cold. I’m also
really scared of cockroaches, but I’ve seen none so far, and I have bug spray.
But the thought of
running out of books terrifies me. There is very little loneliness left over –
not enough to send you running for the next ferry back to Athens – when you
have books to read. And I came here armed with enough books to see me through
the summer (and, thanks to George Eliot’s Middlemarch,
which took me a whole month to get through, I still have two left) but I
hadn’t planned on staying past the first week of September, and the books are
running out. Just like my summer clothes are beginning to feel flimsy and
inadequate. And as soon as the decision to stay was made, the fear arrived.
There are two
bookstores in Sifnos; only one of them sells English books, and it will close
on the 10th of October. Amazon, presumably, will deliver, but my
address would look something like:
Daphne Kapsali
c/o Fotini Xenaki
Eleimonas
(just past the church, on the left, next to Mrs. Pittou)
(grey gate, with a knocker in the shape of a bird)
Katavati
Sifnos
Cyclades
Greece
And I don’t really
like my chances. Once the books run out, that’s it. Nothingness. Doom.
I have appealed to
higher powers for a Kindle, direct from California, and am awaiting its
delivery with hope in my heart. I have resisted getting one so far, despite its
obvious benefits, because I love books. Having them, holding them, stacking
them up next to my bed. Flicking through them, folding the pages down to mark
my spot. Their feel; their smell. But beggars truly can’t be choosers. I have
94 days to get through. I have no books; I have wifi. Bring it. I’m begging.
But in the meantime,
the fear has been temporarily assuaged, thanks to a wonderful exchange scheme
run by the bookstore in town. Bring in three second hand books, get one for
free. So I ransacked the shelves and lugged twenty of them down into town;
Eleni brought three. And then, by some miracle of literary providence, the
bookstore lady received our offerings, counted them, and told us we could
choose eleven (11) books in return.
‘Really?’
I said, before I could stop myself. ‘That sounds like too much.’ Knowing full
well that, according to the 3:1 ratio, we were only entitled to seven.
The
lady, however, shook her head. ‘Eleven,’ she repeated, looking bored.
Eleni
and I scampered round the corner to the second hand shelves.
‘But,’
I said.
‘Shut
up,’ she hissed.
And I complied.
So I’ve just returned
home with ten brand new, second hand books, which I lugged all around town for
two hours as we browsed the shops for bargains (they’ll all about to close for
winter) and then all the way back up the hill. And which are totally worth the
pain in my shoulder.
Also, we got
chocolates for free. There were only two left of the kind we wanted (candied
slices of orange dipped in chocolate), and the man let us have them free of
charge. And I met another kitten; we had a lovely chat. I said ‘Hello, who are
you, then?’ and it said ‘Mew!’, several times.
I’m happy, and the
future is bright: I have books, and the ability to talk to cats. There’ll be no
loneliness left over at all.
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