I found out today that
my body is an impenetrable fortress. Not in a good way: I am, apparently,
completely blocked up. This according to Polyna, a permanent resident of
Sifnos and practitioner of the Bowen Technique, commonly known as BowTech.
I met Polyna at
Eleni’s a few nights ago; they’re old friends, and Eleni thought we should meet
since I’ll be spending the next few months on the island. So I went over and we
sat in the kitchen, and chatted over a glass of wine and a smoke. And BowTech
came up, which I’d never heard of before, surprisingly, since I spent two years
working in a yoga centre in London, and I thought I’d come across pretty much
every variation of alternative therapy there is. Polyna, who treats all her
clients completely free of charge, offered me a treatment, so I could see what
it was all about.
And thus Eleni and I
drove up to her house this afternoon – which was a revelation in itself.
Perched, all alone, at the top of a hill, Polyna’s house has uninterrupted
views of practically the whole of Sifnos, the sea, and the islands beyond. We
were welcomed by a cat (one of several), Polyna, and her dog Coco, and ushered
to the balcony which – no doubt helped by the infinity pool at its edge – felt
like it literally opened up onto the ocean (see photo at the top). It was a
perfectly still, windless days, sunny but with strange, heavy clouds drifting across
the sky and casting their reflections on the sea; the sort of day that, Eleni
claims, you only get to experience in September. It’s one of the gifts
post-holidays Sifnos bestows upon those of us who stick around past the end of
the summer. In any case, the overall effect – the solitary house, the
stillness, the light, the clouds, the sparkling pool and the ocean – was
entirely mesmerising. And made even better by the presence of two kittens
lounging in the sun.
We had espresso and
then Polyna led me to a room in the back for my treatment. Before she began,
Polyna explained that she would apply certain moves, in sets, to different
parts of my body, and then leave the room for a few moments, to give my body
the time to process them and the freedom to react as it pleases. ‘Don’t be
alarmed,’ she instructed. ‘Don’t censor it.’
So I lay there, first
on my front and then, briefly, on my back, as Polyna went in and out of the
room, accompanied by Coco (who, apparently, often assists on these sessions by
showing Polyna where on the client’s body she needs to work). And with every
move I expected something a little alarming to happen, hoped for it, even, but it
never came. Certain moves felt as if they were spreading out to the wider area
of the point they were applied, but my body had very little to say, and
certainly nothing that might require censoring. With the last move applied to
my head, Polyna told me to take my time getting up, and left the room for the
final time. Coco stayed; I could hear her breathing somewhere in the vicinity
of my feet.
When I stood up to
leave the room, Coco lifted her head and gave me a look of concern, and then escorted
me to the balcony, where I rejoined Polyna and Eleni.
‘How do you feel?’ Paulina asked.
‘Very relaxed,’ I admitted. No small feat, considering I’d spent the day
in utter agitation, as a result of an earlier run-in with kickstarter (see
below). ‘A bit lightheaded.’
Polyna nodded. ‘You are very tense.’
‘Yes.’
‘In all my time as a therapist,’ she said contemplatively, ‘I’ve never
come across a body that did nothing at all.’
‘And that’s me?’
‘That’s you. You just wouldn’t let me in.’
‘I’m not surprised,’ I said, though actually, at the same time, I was.
‘It’s been a difficult summer.’ And it was: the last few months have been
extremely challenging, in many different ways, and I’ve often told people I’d
put up a fence around me, to protect myself.
‘A fence?’ Polyna laughed. ‘That’s no fence; it’s prison bars!’
So there you have it:
I am uniquely damaged, imprisoned by my own body, and need help. But, luckily,
help is at hand, in the form of Polyna, who offered (insisted, in fact) to give me weekly sessions for at least the next
two months.
‘We’ll
bring those bars down,’ she promised. ‘We need to. Especially if you want to be
writing.’
And on the topic of
writing, and the accountability I mentioned in yesterday’s post: I spent the
entire morning (my allocated, non-negotiable working hours) creating a
kickstarter project for 100 days of
solitude. This included making a 3.5 minute video of myself, which took me
the best part of three hours, and was absolutely excruciating. I am notoriously
awkward in front of a camera; there is barely a photo of me where I don’t look
like I’m having a stroke, and video is even worse. But I did it and, after a
bit of drama whereby kickstarter was, apparently, unable to verify my identity
(which sent me into a bit of an existential spin for a while), the project is now
complete and ready to go live. My sister advised not launching it on a Friday
night, as it has been observed that social media interaction goes down over the
weekend. So I’m taking her advice, and waiting until Monday. (My friend
Procrastination is delighted; she loves it when things are put off.)
So great news: I’ll be
asking you all for money soon! And as far as accountability is concerned, I
think this is probably as accountable as it gets.
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